What He did
“Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
As a child, I was always taught “to be seen and not heard”. I grew up under a very strict authoritarian parent. My thoughts and opinions were not valued nor wanted. This caused me to withdraw within myself. I was very shy. I did not want to speak with strangers nor with anyone in authority. I also developed a sense of unworthiness and low self-esteem. I had nothing of value to offer; nothing to give. This low self-image affected all areas of my life. It actually made it very difficult for me to accept Jesus as my Savior. After all, I was certainly not worthy of His love nor His gift of salvation. Oddly enough, as a young adult, a blind man helped me to see Jesus’ love for me and I finally accepted His free gift of salvation. But even then it was still difficult for me to share this experience with others. I was always too focused on my own inadequacies.
“...go back to your family, and tell them everything God has done for you.” So he went all through the town proclaiming the great things Jesus had done for him.
My testimony does not lie in my own adequacies. It only lies in what He has done for me. Too often we may think that it is all about us. That we must have a “big story” to tell about what we did, but the real story is what He has done to bring us back to Him. As God began to help me see this He brought these words to me one morning:
God brings: Honor to the worthless, Strength to the weak, Wisdom to the foolish.
Jacob was a nobody, running away from home, responsibilities, failures (lies and cheating). Moses was a nobody, spending months on end with no one but sheep. He had run away from his upbringing, his responsibilities, failures (murder). Gideon (Judges 6) was the least likely to be called upon to save Israel; a nobody in an obscure clan of a remote tribe. It was only through the willingness, submission and faith of these men that God brought to them honor, strength, wisdom. As God said to Ahaz through Isaiah (Isaiah 7:9), “If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.”
I am nobody; I am worthless; I am weak; I am foolish. If I allow Him, God will use me to be somebody with honor, strength and wisdom, but only for His own Glory.
Think about it: Your testimony is big and bold because it is what God has done, not what you have done. You are only to tell “how much God has done for you”. That is very much indeed!
Pray: Father may I hide myself in you. May I tell only what you have done for me. Give me the words; give me the courage; give me the wisdom to speak when and where you would have me speak a word for you.