Can I trust God for that?
“So you want a Jesus loving, motorcycle riding, Sam Elliott looking Christian husband?”
While that would be nice, that is not what happened.
Even after I became a Christian I couldn’t believe God would ever give me what I needed. I grew up thinking I was damaged goods and unworthy to trust God for my own desires. I never thought it was an option to trust God for a husband and wait for him. So I thought I had to find him and do it all myself. I was going to be such a good Christian wife I was going to make someone love me and fall in love with Jesus and we would live happily ever after. I romanticized my ideal man, and my own abilities as a wife. I didn’t think God cared about what I wanted. I thought once I committed a great sin that I was no longer worthy to receive his blessings.
On my own, I made quite a mess. His grace and mercy rescued me from that way of thinking when I finally surrendered to the one who knew my heart. He made it, he knows my needs, and he has a plan for me. The same God who created us, certainly, knows what we need and even what we want before we ask. He wants us to trust him with the answer.
“You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.
As Christians we are clothed in his righteousness and He loves us unconditionally, we can't earn it and don't have to. Jesus told us we only need faith the size of a mustard seed. I don't think I had even that much faith. Jesus changed my heart and mind when I started reading and believing his Word; putting actions to what He said to me. Jesus wanted a relationship with me and when I surrendered to that I started seeing my faith move mountains.
Think about: What keeps you from trusting God for the big things in your life? What are the areas you can employ faith in God’s plan for your life? What action can you put to what God is calling you to do?
Prayer: Lord Jesus, Increase my faith to trust you with the big things in my life. Help me to understand the plans you are calling me to and to employ patience when I need to be patient, and action when I need to be active!